HIS FINAL DIAGNOSIS

3:30 PM 2/28/2008
today mom and i ran august to a vet on broadway that we've never been to before.august had been yelping. i thought he was constipated. she said that august was yelping because he was attempting to breathe. at this point in time i fully agree.his heart condition is what it's all about.
so..we got him there in the nick of time.according to her he'd turned blue and she immediately got him into an oxygen tank ,,a clear glass,aquarium looking thing and piped in oxygen to it through a hole in the top of the glass cage.
he immediately responded.he actually sat up on his own in the glass tank..he hasn't done that for many days. i should never have been taking him to mom's and dad's or even putting him in the car for that matter.
i should have never stopped the lasix pills for those weeks or a month or whatever it was/.
i should have been letting him lay still here at home and not been urging him to get out and walk/i never should have been letting him go up or down the stairs
i shouldn't have been carrying him up or down the stairs.he should have been totally still. i believe now sincerely that with god's help he'll overcome any damage i might've innocently caused him.
on the other hand i believe that if it's god's will,august will be taken over the weekend or sooner.
but he's doing so much better after i prayed for him a bit ago that who knows. i won't begin to determine his fate.if he makes it past midnight sunday night,then he'll be around for quite a while longer.
if he goes on to heaven this weekend then it was god's will as well..either way it will be the will of god that played the hand/. the card..stay..or hit..makes sense ..i play few card games ,but i know blackjack or 21 and i enjoy it..
so..god's the dealer..august either stays or gets hit with the god or heaven card as i'll call it.
august, whenever he does pass through heavens gates will be able to run,and jump and play again and alot more..alot more/.
i can't deny him that thrill/!not if god wants to take him this weekend.
if god sees fit to let him stay..then i know in my heart it would be because he's healing august's hear condition.
theres' no other way in my opinion that god would prefer he stay cause god wouldn't decide to let august continue suffering while here.
the healing might come in the way of the pills he's taking.the medications/..making him stable to live on//
maybe a physical healing.if god decides to take him to heaven this weekend then that in itself is the biggest healing of all. either way,it's in god's hands/.
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august will always and forever be the baby in my heart.i wish i had a better camera to snap pictures of him.this webcam is cheap and the cable isn't even near long enough to take any good shots of anything,..currently however i'm recording august on dvd..i'll mark it with todays date and the term'last diagnosis'/.
he's sleeping peacefully right now. it's nice to see him this peaceful..his breathing is shallow and silent/.
i'm so thankful to god/.after i put august in the backseat of the car ,upon leaving the office,a woman came out and claimed to be the vet chaplin and asked if she could pray for august..so she did.we found that the woman is charasmatic and that she's spirit filled and that she attends a church in town somewhere..garland i think/.
anyways we found that the vet and the office help,etc are all christians. well at least the owners..the vet and so on.
i'll close here. i'll update my wordpress blog later tonight.not much more to say here except we have heart meds for him/.upping the lasix from two to three daily and he's still on his back pill/.i've set alarms to direct me to aid august ona routine basis through the day and night and i'll run those alarms daily to appear oon my desktop/.
if i post here again today or tonight i'll do it on this page as an UPDATE.
4:10 PM 2/28/2008